effort and priorities

i think i've learned a bit about effort and priorities and how priorities can take a lot of effort. especially here. i've realized that beds are really comfortable and it's easy to get lost in them with your cat. sometimes for entire days. i've experienced how much effort it takes to get places on trains and buses and other forms of public transportation and how much time is involved sitting on those trains and buses and other forms of public transportation and how much easier it would be to ignore them. but then i recognize my priorities and what i value. putting in effort gives something value. because i put in time and effort into meeting with friends, it means i value these people, and they're higher on my priority list. because making the effort is worth it, for me. taking the time to invest in these people and to show up for these people is worth it. it's worth the walking, the sitting, the catching, the riding, the walking some more. it's worth missed connections and delayed trains. and while i definitely may grumble and groan. and while i definitely may think about getting back in bed. it's also worth it to take a step back and realize it. is. worth. it. and while i grumble frequently, i realize its worth just as frequently. i realize it lighting sparklers downtown, i realize it eating subway sandwiches, i realize it eating mexican in itaewon, i realize it sitting at the baseball game in jamsil and cheering for both teams, and i realize it when people do the exact same thing for me.