this season of overwhelming transition
of applying for full-time jobs
of trying to figure out where my things will go
of trying to figure out where i'll move
of the parents selling their house
of cousin moving to spain
of moving
i feel most at home when things are in motion, but not when everything is in the air
i feel most confident when i'm the one doing the moving, when i'm still in control, when there's still some kind of pattern
i feel calm when i have an idea of where i'll go and what i'll do
and this is the opposite of that
this time of upheaval
this time of disorder
this time of uprooting, yet again
this time of unknown
this time of learning to trust
this time of learning to lean again
this time of learning to fully rely
this time of leaving on a really, really long road trip through the woods and mountains
because i don't know what else to do -- but keep moving
